Life is Committment

We are here because there is a commitment  My parents were committed to grow us, educate us. Teachers were committed to educate us. Friend were helpful and affectionate. Every thing is a commitment. If Commitment is absent, then there is havoc and injustice.

Now-a-days Politicians and officials are so corrupt, because they do not have commitment  Our Leaders like Gandhiji, Netaji Subhas Bose had Commitment towards country and people, so only they could free India from clutches of England. But now leaders do not have commitment towards Country and people, so there is corruption.

Who will train people on Commitment?

Professional at all level have become corrupt. from a AWW to Secretary, From MLA to Ministers  from petty traders to Big companies!

At home also there are social corruptions like Female fetecide, Dowry demand, Torture even killing of bride for dowry is going on.

I found that, in India, most of the parents press children for higher 'marks' and 'grade'! I feel so pain when I see even small children of 6-7 years also sitting in dark rooms during evening with tutors for coaching or running to coaching class!. They are deprived from playground  they work hard to satisfy ambitions of parents. Is it not a corrupt greedy practice, that is crumbling childhood with competition?

I am really sorry that people are losing commitment.

Still I believe, there must be many people who are committed and Honest, but they are not focused as they should be. They lose ground and stay back in this corrupt world.

I used to read in 'Sambad' Oriya daily a column titled as "Bhalo Khabar" (Good news), it was an initiative to bring out news about committed people.

In this new year 2011, I have decided to start a Network of Committed and Honest people and work together for cause of bringing in Commitment back in society.

This is a hard task, but possible.

Life is Transforming process

Whenever I face some incident which is not favourable for me, i.e. an unfavourable comment, an unfair neighbour, any unjust behaviour from any one, I feel very agitated and sad. It disturbes me internally and I often lose my coolness of mind. I start to argue within self to undrstand why it happens, why some one is such opposing me, what is my fault, ect. I often lose my sleep. I can not bear that some one misunderstand me or take me wrongly or misinterpret my words or actions, but I do not like to explain myself. I think let her/him understand me and be back. It is a struggle for me to be in myself and relate with that person normally. I suffer and suffer, unless I Transform the shock to smile.
It is said that Leader must have a strong shock-absorber! it is true. I am working in a leading position and in my Life I am, but my shock-absorber is not so good, it oten breaks. I think this is a default-setting!
I will be happy to listen and learn from you if you have a better shock-absorber!

Life is Friendship

One can feel the complete beauty of Life in befriending with others; I feel friends need ont be human being only. I have so many friends even if I am known as introvert, shy ...etc... and most of my friends are birds and Trees. Prasanta calls me a bird many times. I have three pair of sparrows nestling around our home. They always come, chrip..chrip and chrip...I have kept photos on widow panes and these are great shades for them to make nest. During Feb-March they make nest in back side the framed big photos. I watch them happily--they come and fly around home and our Res-office. They do not fear me, comes so near me on widow grills, when I sit near widows to read news papper. I have marked they have langusge. They chrip differently in different times. One pair has made nest in bathroom upon flash tank also. Every morning they sit and see their reflections on mirror and try to reach it with becks and make lot of hues. It is a good luck for me to open eyes in morning with the chripping of these friends. Recently one pair of sparrow has started to make nest in our office room, just between on the widow pane and the rod of the screens; very delicate place...I fear it may fall. But how to remove it now? I have made a video of this birds in work! Watch this--- have fun and joy!

Life is Revealation

Life is a Revealation--our spiritual books and teachers taught, I knew it very well, but never realised it! Recently I have started to realise meaning of the words--"Life is a revealation". Ya, this Revealation is painful, but not always...it is Beautiful...very very beautiful also.
Now when I look to my life--- my Childhood full of joy and smiles, and tears many times....
My Adolescent periods full of cheers and laughters--I laughed so much with my sisters and friends... I played, I walked in open field under sky. Mom loved me so much, she was my inspiration, she inspired me to be Big and Great and do meaningful things. She narrated so many stories of Great souls. I studied with full zeal and concentration. I was so happy.
My Young age was a nice mixture of Joy, Love and Anger. I was an angry young lady, still happy even with my angers also. I mastered so many Arts and so open and broadminded to love and mix with all. even I was much comfortable with many persons, who were known as "not so good" or "bad" fellows. I never judged anyone as Good or Bad, just accepted every one and every thing and if I unsatisfied loudly showed my anger! But after may be ten minutes I am the same person happy and smiling, I forget the anger and mix with same person I angry with--even I was not aware of it!One of my colleague, RK, once marked this and told me that he is surprised how quickly I forget anger and be calm!
Life was so easy for me; I have done whatever I wanted--I fulfilled all my wishes--I was always sucessful. I was satisfied with me--the way I am performing, I way I look (even every one told me that you are very thin and must put on some weight!) the way I am! There were no internal Conflict, whatever little conflict was there with others--which I used to solve in my one way!
When I reached may be 34/35 years--- I have first serious encounter with negetive energies of people--hate, discriminations, jealousy, falsity, hypocricy... and so on....How I reacted to these? I felt extremely surprised--it is totally out of my expectations, first few years I spent an awed life--as if threatened by them and beware of something in form of few persons. After few years I got bitter, acquired bitterness to counter those negatives. That also does not worked---I became Angry and condemning in nature---but that also does not worked---then I started to hate and spit my bitterness---that also does not worked, But I LOST MY HEALTH, I became sick in body and Mind!
It continued for few more years until I realised that I am losing My Self to counter odds, I started to walk back to my nature again! and slowly I find again my own domain of solace in heart and body!
Poet Wordsworth described super-innocence in his poems, I read it wrote pages on it when in college; but actually never knew it! But now, after a hectic journey in Life on the road on Negetives and getting back to track again--- I realise the meaning of innocence, losing innocence and regaining in life as super-innocence!
Now again I am happy and calm! Still the memories of those Conflict with negetives sometimes disturbs my thoughts-- but I have almost learned to tame Negetives and enjoy Life---and I am today very Happy that I have won a war with negetives and discovered some Treasures of Life. In this struggle who was always with me was my God and my Hubby! Both are much happy that I have Won!
Not only me, every one may be undergo same struggle in Life, fortunate and Blissed are those who can overcome and be Self!

Life is to dissolve EGO

Often I look to my Life to find that many times I showed much Ego to people, even to friends and relatives. I thought I am very good person and I should hold myself up; and to uphold myself I often forget that the other person also may be good even better at heart. I always thought myself a special person, very honest and upright and I deserve a special treatment! I denied to mix with 'just anyone' and looked for exceptional persons to befriend! Alas! I have very few friends and even many friends, whom I want are dreaded of me, I always thought, WHY? I am so good, still I have very few people with me! It is so unjust, none understands me!

But now only recently I engaged a worker who is good in work, but suffering the same disease of Egoism. I can feel her, she thinks she is so good and always tries to advertise it very rudely. I do not like her, even if her work is Ok. I pity her now for her attitude.

Now I understand what mistake I have done in my Life. I am now ashamed of myself. In my Ego and self-glorification I have hurt even my Parents, My friends and many relatives and even my Life-partner, my most lovable Hubby.

To enjoy life and make life sucessful one have to shake off all Ego and be transparent. It is not easy, still I have started to practice it. and I have a hope that My Life will be a Better Place hence forth.

Life is Duty

Last one year I am continuously searching for meaning of Life; what is Life ? Why we are here? What we are doing? What I am doing here? Many times may answers flashed in mind and I have written those in this Blog. Last week I called Guddu, my son, whom I suddenly got during a hospital visit in Bhubaneswar--he called me "Mom" --a strong, decent and sensitive boy of 22/23 years; I was struck by his soberness and smiles. Last week when I talked with Guddu over phone and told him 'keep smiling', he replied "Mom you are olded and wiser, still may I tell you something --It is best that one understand one's Duty earliest and perform it in Life. Now it is up to You whether you do it while Smile or Weep". So easy so simple way of defining Life and so hard to follow! I have no word to praise his wiseness and sincerity.