Life is Revealation

Life is a Revealation--our spiritual books and teachers taught, I knew it very well, but never realised it! Recently I have started to realise meaning of the words--"Life is a revealation". Ya, this Revealation is painful, but not always...it is Beautiful...very very beautiful also.
Now when I look to my life--- my Childhood full of joy and smiles, and tears many times....
My Adolescent periods full of cheers and laughters--I laughed so much with my sisters and friends... I played, I walked in open field under sky. Mom loved me so much, she was my inspiration, she inspired me to be Big and Great and do meaningful things. She narrated so many stories of Great souls. I studied with full zeal and concentration. I was so happy.
My Young age was a nice mixture of Joy, Love and Anger. I was an angry young lady, still happy even with my angers also. I mastered so many Arts and so open and broadminded to love and mix with all. even I was much comfortable with many persons, who were known as "not so good" or "bad" fellows. I never judged anyone as Good or Bad, just accepted every one and every thing and if I unsatisfied loudly showed my anger! But after may be ten minutes I am the same person happy and smiling, I forget the anger and mix with same person I angry with--even I was not aware of it!One of my colleague, RK, once marked this and told me that he is surprised how quickly I forget anger and be calm!
Life was so easy for me; I have done whatever I wanted--I fulfilled all my wishes--I was always sucessful. I was satisfied with me--the way I am performing, I way I look (even every one told me that you are very thin and must put on some weight!) the way I am! There were no internal Conflict, whatever little conflict was there with others--which I used to solve in my one way!
When I reached may be 34/35 years--- I have first serious encounter with negetive energies of people--hate, discriminations, jealousy, falsity, hypocricy... and so on....How I reacted to these? I felt extremely surprised--it is totally out of my expectations, first few years I spent an awed life--as if threatened by them and beware of something in form of few persons. After few years I got bitter, acquired bitterness to counter those negatives. That also does not worked---I became Angry and condemning in nature---but that also does not worked---then I started to hate and spit my bitterness---that also does not worked, But I LOST MY HEALTH, I became sick in body and Mind!
It continued for few more years until I realised that I am losing My Self to counter odds, I started to walk back to my nature again! and slowly I find again my own domain of solace in heart and body!
Poet Wordsworth described super-innocence in his poems, I read it wrote pages on it when in college; but actually never knew it! But now, after a hectic journey in Life on the road on Negetives and getting back to track again--- I realise the meaning of innocence, losing innocence and regaining in life as super-innocence!
Now again I am happy and calm! Still the memories of those Conflict with negetives sometimes disturbs my thoughts-- but I have almost learned to tame Negetives and enjoy Life---and I am today very Happy that I have won a war with negetives and discovered some Treasures of Life. In this struggle who was always with me was my God and my Hubby! Both are much happy that I have Won!
Not only me, every one may be undergo same struggle in Life, fortunate and Blissed are those who can overcome and be Self!