Life is to dissolve EGO

Often I look to my Life to find that many times I showed much Ego to people, even to friends and relatives. I thought I am very good person and I should hold myself up; and to uphold myself I often forget that the other person also may be good even better at heart. I always thought myself a special person, very honest and upright and I deserve a special treatment! I denied to mix with 'just anyone' and looked for exceptional persons to befriend! Alas! I have very few friends and even many friends, whom I want are dreaded of me, I always thought, WHY? I am so good, still I have very few people with me! It is so unjust, none understands me!

But now only recently I engaged a worker who is good in work, but suffering the same disease of Egoism. I can feel her, she thinks she is so good and always tries to advertise it very rudely. I do not like her, even if her work is Ok. I pity her now for her attitude.

Now I understand what mistake I have done in my Life. I am now ashamed of myself. In my Ego and self-glorification I have hurt even my Parents, My friends and many relatives and even my Life-partner, my most lovable Hubby.

To enjoy life and make life sucessful one have to shake off all Ego and be transparent. It is not easy, still I have started to practice it. and I have a hope that My Life will be a Better Place hence forth.

Life is Duty

Last one year I am continuously searching for meaning of Life; what is Life ? Why we are here? What we are doing? What I am doing here? Many times may answers flashed in mind and I have written those in this Blog. Last week I called Guddu, my son, whom I suddenly got during a hospital visit in Bhubaneswar--he called me "Mom" --a strong, decent and sensitive boy of 22/23 years; I was struck by his soberness and smiles. Last week when I talked with Guddu over phone and told him 'keep smiling', he replied "Mom you are olded and wiser, still may I tell you something --It is best that one understand one's Duty earliest and perform it in Life. Now it is up to You whether you do it while Smile or Weep". So easy so simple way of defining Life and so hard to follow! I have no word to praise his wiseness and sincerity.