Life is Revealation

Life is a Revealation--our spiritual books and teachers taught, I knew it very well, but never realised it! Recently I have started to realise meaning of the words--"Life is a revealation". Ya, this Revealation is painful, but not always...it is Beautiful...very very beautiful also.
Now when I look to my life--- my Childhood full of joy and smiles, and tears many times....
My Adolescent periods full of cheers and laughters--I laughed so much with my sisters and friends... I played, I walked in open field under sky. Mom loved me so much, she was my inspiration, she inspired me to be Big and Great and do meaningful things. She narrated so many stories of Great souls. I studied with full zeal and concentration. I was so happy.
My Young age was a nice mixture of Joy, Love and Anger. I was an angry young lady, still happy even with my angers also. I mastered so many Arts and so open and broadminded to love and mix with all. even I was much comfortable with many persons, who were known as "not so good" or "bad" fellows. I never judged anyone as Good or Bad, just accepted every one and every thing and if I unsatisfied loudly showed my anger! But after may be ten minutes I am the same person happy and smiling, I forget the anger and mix with same person I angry with--even I was not aware of it!One of my colleague, RK, once marked this and told me that he is surprised how quickly I forget anger and be calm!
Life was so easy for me; I have done whatever I wanted--I fulfilled all my wishes--I was always sucessful. I was satisfied with me--the way I am performing, I way I look (even every one told me that you are very thin and must put on some weight!) the way I am! There were no internal Conflict, whatever little conflict was there with others--which I used to solve in my one way!
When I reached may be 34/35 years--- I have first serious encounter with negetive energies of people--hate, discriminations, jealousy, falsity, hypocricy... and so on....How I reacted to these? I felt extremely surprised--it is totally out of my expectations, first few years I spent an awed life--as if threatened by them and beware of something in form of few persons. After few years I got bitter, acquired bitterness to counter those negatives. That also does not worked---I became Angry and condemning in nature---but that also does not worked---then I started to hate and spit my bitterness---that also does not worked, But I LOST MY HEALTH, I became sick in body and Mind!
It continued for few more years until I realised that I am losing My Self to counter odds, I started to walk back to my nature again! and slowly I find again my own domain of solace in heart and body!
Poet Wordsworth described super-innocence in his poems, I read it wrote pages on it when in college; but actually never knew it! But now, after a hectic journey in Life on the road on Negetives and getting back to track again--- I realise the meaning of innocence, losing innocence and regaining in life as super-innocence!
Now again I am happy and calm! Still the memories of those Conflict with negetives sometimes disturbs my thoughts-- but I have almost learned to tame Negetives and enjoy Life---and I am today very Happy that I have won a war with negetives and discovered some Treasures of Life. In this struggle who was always with me was my God and my Hubby! Both are much happy that I have Won!
Not only me, every one may be undergo same struggle in Life, fortunate and Blissed are those who can overcome and be Self!

Life is to dissolve EGO

Often I look to my Life to find that many times I showed much Ego to people, even to friends and relatives. I thought I am very good person and I should hold myself up; and to uphold myself I often forget that the other person also may be good even better at heart. I always thought myself a special person, very honest and upright and I deserve a special treatment! I denied to mix with 'just anyone' and looked for exceptional persons to befriend! Alas! I have very few friends and even many friends, whom I want are dreaded of me, I always thought, WHY? I am so good, still I have very few people with me! It is so unjust, none understands me!

But now only recently I engaged a worker who is good in work, but suffering the same disease of Egoism. I can feel her, she thinks she is so good and always tries to advertise it very rudely. I do not like her, even if her work is Ok. I pity her now for her attitude.

Now I understand what mistake I have done in my Life. I am now ashamed of myself. In my Ego and self-glorification I have hurt even my Parents, My friends and many relatives and even my Life-partner, my most lovable Hubby.

To enjoy life and make life sucessful one have to shake off all Ego and be transparent. It is not easy, still I have started to practice it. and I have a hope that My Life will be a Better Place hence forth.

Life is Duty

Last one year I am continuously searching for meaning of Life; what is Life ? Why we are here? What we are doing? What I am doing here? Many times may answers flashed in mind and I have written those in this Blog. Last week I called Guddu, my son, whom I suddenly got during a hospital visit in Bhubaneswar--he called me "Mom" --a strong, decent and sensitive boy of 22/23 years; I was struck by his soberness and smiles. Last week when I talked with Guddu over phone and told him 'keep smiling', he replied "Mom you are olded and wiser, still may I tell you something --It is best that one understand one's Duty earliest and perform it in Life. Now it is up to You whether you do it while Smile or Weep". So easy so simple way of defining Life and so hard to follow! I have no word to praise his wiseness and sincerity.

Life is to stop expecting from others.

Life is to stop expecting from others. As long as you are expecting anything from other people, be it a material or an emotion, you can not obtain peace & happiness. You will always stand expecting and the hope is not fulfilled, so you will be sad or angry or fearfull or jealous. It will haunt you and you may enter quarrel & conflict also. In this world, every body is standing before other with lots of expectation--your parents expect care & love, your friends want cooperation, colleagues want good behaviour, respect, childen wants love & gift etc many more and you are also expecting many thing from others. These expectation only causes all conflict and dissatisfaction.; but we go on lingering on it. If you do a good work you expect others to praise you, if you love someone you hope it will be reciprocated. And this lead to heaps of expectation and we live only with expectations......Stop expecting and you see you feel better even great and very free & happy. Free youself from all expectations. One may ask how I can do it; because even if I stop expecting, others are not going to stop it--they will expect and even demand from me love, duty, care, and all... I have to give them, so why should I stop expecting from them? Thus you can make Life only a Deal.... and this is making Life more and more complicated and conflicting even miserable. Once you can feel that Life is to undo expectation you are a free man! happy and graceful naturally.

Life is a miracle

Life is a miracle. We search for security and insure Life, but can you really save yours or anyone's life, whose term is over? Being with so many relatives and friend insured in the comfort of good job and good house, protected by so many expert doctors, people suddenly leave the world. Why it happens? Who can tell us.

Life is a Simulation game

Life is a Simulation game designed and facilitated by GOD; you need not worry for the end result, Win or Lose it has the same meaning if you follow the rules of the game. Your duty is to play your role honestly, effectively and with full concentration; you will learn a lot from the process. keep Learning and keep Changing--be open to accept and assimilate, give and develop and you will be enjoying Life like sweet fragrance.

Life is to face the World

Life is to face the world--either face the World, meet its challenges or Face the darkness and dejection. If you get fearful to Light you have to retire in Darkness.

Facing Light is not easy, there are many challenges, many competitions and many comparisons, envy, rudeness, fight, conflict also, but if you dare not to Face these and hide your face, can live in Peace?

You can't get Peace of mind and happiness if you hide in Dark; there is no escape actually from the Challenge; in dark you will be challenged by the feelings of being imcompetant, ridiculous, worthlessness, selfishness and all other related negetives.

It is not easy to Face the world--But it is also more tough to withdraw from it; withdrawal will be demolishing effect on you and destroy your confidence, on which you live actually.

By facing the World you may not Win every time, but you can WIN next time; there is always a way open and leading to your worth.

Hide your face and you are more cornered by the World.

There is no Escape; World will not leave you, it will laugh on you and mock your helpless face.

Either you Face the World or World will stare on your face like a demon!